"Fake It Til Ya Make It"

At some point, I really started to live by this motto. 

I think it was around the time I was going through a divorce in my twenties. I had all of these big dreams and goals of what I wanted to achieve with my life and sadly, that relationship wasn't very conducive to that (amongst other things).

Starting life anew, alone for the first time as an adult, in a foreign country was damn hard - and freaking scary. But I knew in order to become the best version of me,  I was going to have to put myself out there and soar.

Traveling around the world networking with some very important people, my first real interview, being filmed for live reporting, taking street dance and ballet classes, enrolling in a writing course, taking up yoga, joining a cycle club, my first race, getting my own place, going freelance and needing to be responsible for my own pay cheque each week, moving to a new city and having to make new friends, learning guitar. 

All are things that I had to step outside of my comfort zone and try something new. Of course I was nervous. Of course my anxiety was riding high. On my way to some of the above, my stomach was often flip-flopping.

But, I also just said to myself, "fake it til ya make it" and it immediately put my mind at ease. Plus, worst case scenario, I could use it in my memoirs right? 😅

The latest undertaking is the guitar lessons. I bought a cheap guitar when I was in London and it has sat in a corner for the last three years. I tried to do the online courses and just couldn't wrap my head around it. So, this week I went to my first lesson and had all those same feelings. I was worried I would look stupid or have no idea what I was doing. Which, having never played a guitar in my life, of course I would have no idea what I was doing!

But I left that class on such a high - the pride, accomplishment, and excitement with starting something new reassured me it was all worth it. And I guarantee you, all of the other people you see when scrolling through instagram doing something exciting, transforming their lives, travelling somewhere exotic - all of them had similar fears and feelings of doubt before they started too. 

So why not try something new yourself this year? I promise you won't regret it!